Life Crisis 101: EXO Lightstick or EXO'rDIUM?

New semester starts on February 13th 2017. As a third year college student, I've been frustated with my thesis proposal, yes, I'm starting my thesis this year. I was dreaded with the fact that I have to retake this certain class in the next semester because I got C. I want to cry...

Back to the topic, I'm feeling conflicted right now! My friends on Twitter are all talking about how excited they are for EXO'rDIUM concert that will be held in their own countries. EXO'rDIUM in Manila will be held on February 25th and 26th 2017, EXO'rDIUM in Malaysia will be held on March 18th 2017, and EXO'rDIUM in Singapore will be held on April 2nd 2017. EXO will also explore North America for their concert this year before they make a summer comeback. EXO'rDIUM in Newark will be held on April 25th 2017, EXO'rDIUM in Mexico will be held on April 27th 2017, and EXO'rDIUM in Los Angeles will be held on April 28th 2017.

The fact that EXO is coming to America, but not Indonesia, which is nearer, caught me off guard. What kind of headassery is this.

The promotor who invited EXO to hold a concert last year, Mecimapro, said that they won't be inviting EXO again this year because they can't find for a proper date for the concert because EXO has a really tight schedule. I don't know whether I have to cry or I have to cry. I'm waiting for another promotor to invite EXO but until now, there is no solid news about it. I have filled a petition for My Music Taste so that EXO'rDIUM will be held here too.

I didn't attend EXO's first concert on September 2014, The Lost Planet, because I had to do my new student orientation on my university and I couldn't miss that, of course, and in addition, my parents wouldn't let me. I also didn't attend EXO's second concert on February 2016, The EXO'luXion, because I was doing student exchange. 

The thing is, this year is the only chance I have to attend a concert, because I will be extra busy next year with the thesis and internship. I'm supposed to graduate next year and I hope I can do that. I have saved my money for EXO'rDIUM, but the promotor decided not to invite EXO here. I wanna scream, I wanna yell at people, I wanna cry so bad! I can't believe there is always be a barrier everytime I want to attend EXO concert. 

I'm so frustated, to the point I have used half of my savings for EXO'rDIUM to buy skincare products. Yes, I've been oggling on skincare websites, and vlogs a lot and I'm tempted to buy at least one product for every step to fulfil The 10 Steps of Korean Skincare Routine. I can't resist, and now I wanna cry to the possibility of EXO'rDIUM to be confirmed here in Jakarta. 

And I want to tell you, that EXO lightstick version 2, has been sold out since forever and there's no stock for it anymore in S.M Town Coex Artium, a shop selling so many goods from S.M Entertainment. Three days ago, there was a news from one of an online shops I know, that SMent will restock the official lightstick on April 2017 and they will only sell 5000 lightsticks. That's such a small amount! My friends on Twitter are all looking for the lightstick, especially the ones who will attend the concert but haven't bought the lightstick yet. You may say that this lightstick is rare to find and hard to get. 

I'm confused whether to buy the lightstick or no. If I buy it, then I can't possibly attend EXO'rDIUM if it's confirmed to be held in my country, because I don't have enough money to buy the standing ticket. And if EXO'rDIUM won't be held here, I will still be able to have the official lightstick and cry myself to sleep. If I don't buy the lightstick to wait for EXO'rDIUM to be confirmed, and let's say if EXO'rDIUM is confirmed, I still can buy the standing ticket, even when I don't have the lightstick. Let's say I wait for EXO'rDIUM to be confirmed, and EXO isn't going to come here, I will be doomed because I miss the deadline of the official lightstick preorder. I'm so conflicted, why is EXO making me frustated?

The preorder for the lightstick will be closed on February 23rd 2017, and it means I have to make decision whether I have to buy it or just wait for the concert that only God knows when. 

The lightstick is so pretty, in the picture, and I bet it looks prettier in my hand. 

I didn't buy the first official lightstick (the black colour one), because I thought that I can always buy it anytime in the near future. I don't know that SMent is actually releasing a new version of the official lightstick (the white colour one)! I got scammed. This is why I have to buy it for real, who knows there will be EXO-Ls official lightstick version 3, perhaps?

This official lightstick version 2 is more expensive than the first one, because the first one only has one colour, but the second version has 12 colours which can change colour if you connect it to this certain Wyth application from your phone! Isn't that cool? If you attend EXO'rDIUM, the lightstick will change colour automatically controlled by the staffs of SMent at backstage.  

You can see here in the videos below that the lightstick changes colour automatically and it is so so so so beautiful how the whole venue is filled with the colour! I have to witness this at least once in my lifetime!

I want to cry!!!!!!!! I really hope I can attend the concert one day.

Update 170101 (Happy New Year 2017!)

Time flies so fast and it's 2017 already. All I did is blink. Anyway, happy new year! I hope I can do well this year, and I hope I can do all of my life resolutions and completing the 2016 life resolutions. Haha. 

Listening to: All of the songs in EXO winter album, For Life. I also listen to EXO's December 2014 all over again because I was listening to EXO songs in Youtube, and that song was suddenly playing and I was like fuck whose song is this and I was beamed at that because how the hell can I forget such a beautiful song like that! I used to play it nonstop and now I forget the title and the beat and everything. I also listen to Hyung OST sung by EXO's Kyungsoo and Cho Jungsuk, Don't Worry My Dear. 

Watching: Marmut Merah Jambu on TV. I've never thought that this movie would be that funny, but for plant's sake, it's so funny. I watched it with Dianar and Putri who barged into my house because we were pretty unemployed at that time, because of new year holiday. We laughed so hard I think my neighborhood heard my loud clap and snicker, and laughter. 

Loving: My Skype session with my Twitter friends, Danty and Jia. In December, there are so many year-end music events and of course EXO will be attending all of them. I decided to stream SBS Gayo Daejun on December 27th and Skype called Jia. I would like to call Nani but she deadass rejected my offer I can't believe this slander. Jia's internet connection was bad at that time and our call ended after one hour. Two days after, I streamed to KBS Gayo Daechukjae on December 29th and decided to call Jia and Danty. We jammed to the songs a lot. Our Skype session is mainly about Jia side-eyeing Twice & Danty and I complaining about our lagging stream. They are so loud I need Nani to accompany my quite and calm side. (((She will have final exams that's why, good luck fam.)))

Reading: Fanfictions. Again.

Have been thinking to: EXO'rDIUM concert a lot. Last week, the promoter of EXO'rDIUM Manila announced the ticket price of the concert and the most expensive one is like 12500PHP or $250 for plant's sake. It's so expensive like so so so expensive??? And I'm scared of how much is the ticket price for EXO'rDIUM Jakarta (if there will be one of course).  The most expensive ticket for EXO'rDIUM Bangkok is like 6000 Baht or $167 and that is fine for me??? I hope the ticket price will be around that number or else I'm going to sell my fats for money.

Anticipating to: Kyungsoo's next movies, Room Number #7, With God, and Underdog. I'm so hyped and pumped! Oh and I'm going to go to Jakarta for holiday next week and I'm planning to watch movies with my friends, so yeah, I'm anticipating. I ALSO ANTICIPATE KYUNGSOO'S BIRTHDAY ON JANUARY 12TH 2017. This ray of sunshine is turning 25 (Korean age), I can't believe.

Squishy :(

EXO's 100th Concert!

EXO third world tour concert, EXO'rDIUM is officially started on July 2016, and today's Osaka concert is EXO's 103th concert since May 23, 2014. Time flies so fast, sure thing. 

But I can't help but feeling emotional. 

EXO had done 30 concerts for their first world tour concert, The Lost Planet, back then in 2014. They had 44 concerts for their second world tour, EXO'luXion. And then they had done 29 concerts for EXO'rDIUM (so far). 

They had EXO'rDIUM in Osaka from December 9th 2016 until December 11th 2016. They must be exhausted so much, I don't know whether they are even humans. This Osaka concert marks the ending of EXO'rDIUM in 2016, but I anticipate for so many concerts next year on 2017! I hope they will hold EXO'rDIUM in Jakarta. please. I need to see Kyungsoo dancing to Artificial Love. 

Millior dollar question: How much bucks does SMent get from all of those concerts?

Look at these beautiful pictures of EXO concert. I wish I were there to witness!