Find Me a Man like Do Kyungsoo

I'm glad I can kick my lazyass soul off for once and I decided to write something today. Yay, I'm still in my holiday vibe so you know why I don't open my blog recently. I've been scrolling through Youtube, Instagram a lot, like a lot, and also Twitter.

You know right that I love a boy group from South Korea named EXO so much? 

You know right that I love one of its members, Sehun, so much?

You know right that one of its members named Do Kyungsoo is my second priority after Sehun?

And do you know that this Kyungsoo guy snatched the trophy in my bias list in a span of seconds?

You don't know it? Okay, now you know.

Okay, this is the explanation. (Fuck my life, I am trembling typing this because the pictures above, can I just unsee?) Damn, those veins.

So you might not know that my affection towards Kyungsoo is already there since forever. When the first time EXO debuted, I stan Kyungsoo because I have a thing for lead vocal. How can you not stan him after he did that adlib + high note in the beginning of MAMA? But then I have ups and downs and always changing my bias priority now and then.

But at 2013, I decided that; this is it, Sehun is the one.

I always find him beautiful and perfect, and he will always be.

But along the way, I just realized that everytime I scroll through Twitter, my eyes always linger to Kyungsoo previews and silently staring at them for a minute or so.

It happened everytime. Like I always find him adorable and cute, yet he can pull a manly side of him. I remember that time when I watched a fancam where Kyungsoo ran from the center of the stage to the old lady who struggled to step on the stage. 

At that time, I was speechless. I know he is manly, but it hits me hard, he is also such a gentleman.

Afther that I can't help but spazzing over him aside from Sehun. Day by day, Kyungsoo takes my attention the most and I was feeling scared. It's like I've been cheating, how can I abandon the person I've stanned for so long? I feel so funny, shit, I'm taking this too seriously.

It's just Kpop, for fuck's sake. But why am I feeling like this? 

I keep complaining this issue to Nani, my friend whom I met from Twitter. She tried to tell me that it's okay to change bias and she tried to dechiper what is it am I feeling. She can be my part time counselor instead.

After so much talking and ranting, she reasoned that, "Nuha, you like Sehun as an idol, but you like Kyungsoo as a man,"

I stopped.

Just.

Stopped.

I feel like crying, she is right. 

When I look back, I indeed always admire him as someone who is so polite and always behaving nicely. He is the type of person who doesn't give a fuck with other people think about him and be himself. He seems like a shy guy and he looks so quite at the first time you meet, but actually you just have to approach him with a certain way and he will open up to you and he is indeed such a lovely person. At least, that's what other members said.

Kyungsoo can be super manly and tomorrow he will be super squishy and all cute, because basically he is manly and such a gentleman, but he is kinda 4D. He can be all excited and cheerful and the next minute he will flex his muscles and I have to stop. Because it's too much.

He always bows politely everytime he meets older people and is being all smiley and a little bit awkward at times when he is surrounded by new people, like I watched in every fancams about his filming come out. 

In every EXO variety, Kyungsoo always stands in the back and scrutinizing other members do the talking and sometimes giggling cutely. I always screamed, "Let Kyungsoo do the talk and leave him there alone!!!!!!!!!" and I guess Park Chanyeol understands me well. He always asks Kyungsoo to talk more and when Kyungsoo is nowhere to be seen, he always yells Kyungsoo's name very loud and Kyungsoo will come out and smile awkwardly to the camera.

That one time when EXO members did a V App live broadcasting, and at first, it's Chanyeol who asked Kyungsoo to say something, and Kyungsoo suddenly standing to the front and approaching the camera while saying, "Oh- annyeonghaseyo," and he squinted his eyes because he tried to read the comment section on the screen and it was so damn cute I have to squeal first before laying on floor while staring at the ceiling, because once again, it's too much.

In addition, he's such a hardworking man. When he was filming his Pure Love movie, he had to fly back and forth from Goheung to Seoul so many times. I can feel him being dreadful tired and all, but he kept doing the the routine being an actor, and being an idol. I want to cry, he is so perfect.

Have you ever read an interview about him appreciating people who tell him "Good job!" rather than people complementing his looks and personality, because he needs sincere words toward his achievement. 

He is so beautiful and I will never get tired saying it.

When the other members show their body parts proudly, Kyungsoo will cover it as much as possible. He doesn't like to show so much skin to everyone and I appreciate him a lot for that.

When the other members compliment Kyungsoo how good his acting or his singing skill are, Kyungsoo always looks down embarrassedly and tries to dismiss it and will tell them that he still lacks of it and needs to improve more.

When someone asked Kyungsoo to say some words about Chanyeol's acting, Kyungsoo denied it and said that he has no rights to judge other member's acting skill because he just can't and he has no place to be doing that.

When Jongin compliments Kyungsoo about his singing skill ("Kyungsoo hyung is really good at singing. Out of all EXO members, Kyungsoo hyung's voice is my favourite. If he practices singing 2 hours a day, he will be the best singer in South Korea,") which receiving an embarrassed laugh from Kyungsoo, along with. "This guy is lying,"

When Kang Hodong asked what type of sports Kyungsoo is good at, Kyungsoo told him that he can't do sports and I have to stop and snort because I really remember Chanyeol said that Kyungsoo is really good at billiard and he always lose to Kyungsoo all the time.

Kyungsoo is just humble, and perfect.

I also like every little things he do and love the way he dresses.

He used to wear such a weird clothes to go to the airport, like that time he wore a couple outfit with Junmyeon, and wore a really long coat he looked like a caterpillar.

But now, he seems to be not minding the fashion he wears, he just does it. He loves to wear plain white shirt along with plain khaki pants (or sometimes jeans), along with his fave wornout sneakers and docmarts. 

He also wears socks and they look so cute on him, everything about him screams cute!

He loves wearing black and old green clothes a lot and I think it's his characteristic. He also loves to bring simple backpack and wears face mask a lot. I can even see his cute pimples! Barefaced Kyungsoo always looks ethereal. 

He always pulls the casual and simple look perfectly without even trying.

I wish my affection towards Kyungsoo and EXO will never fade, I like this feeling. But eventually, I'm gonna live my life and forget about Kpop but at least the future me will take a look back to this and smiling. It's a one life time experience stanning a Kpop group so dearly and know there's this person called Do Kyungsoo exist.

So much fluffiness in this post I will meditate after this.

Okay, so uhm bye. I love Kyungsoo and help me find his doppelganger on earth so I won't be suffering in this Kyungsoo black hole forever. (And remember that I will always love Sehun because he is so beautiful, it's just that Kyungsoo takes my attention the most)