SH Ent Cup 2016: FC Men vs Selebritis FC

I've been so busy doing my assignments that are piling up this month because old semester student like me always does school works based on deadline.  Presentations, essays, papers, and rainbow. I was planning to write about this since long time ago, but life takes a toll on me and now I can't breathe. Exam week is right at the corner, but this post can't wait.

Like I had posted before, here, I told you that I'm going to SH Ent Cup 2016 that's being held on November 5th 2016 in Bekasi. My sister and I bought the tickets early in July, 4 months before the competition day because we were afraid we will run out of the tickets. Such dedication. 

I went to Bekasi with my sister and my dad on Friday, November 4th 2016, by train. We took 8 hours sitting inside the train and I might say my butt evaporated and are gone with the wind. It was such a long ride. I stayed for two nights at my mom's house in Bekasi, and the venue is so near. Just 20 minutes by walking.

The competition started at 6 PM so I spent my morning walking around Bekasi with my sister and my parents. Bekasi is so much more like Semarang, with all of the traffic jams, but Bekasi has more supermarkets and malls than here. I'm not complaining. Oh, I actually complained, traffic jams make people change you know. 

The venue is so huge. And the crowd, God, the crowd made me insane.

I had to queue with bunch of wild girls, and I was like, oh so this is how queueing at concert feels like? So exhausting. They kept pushing and pushing, and yelling to the securities, and I was just standing there laughing because they are all so funny. So many fangirls at soccer competition.

I also found so many girls holding EXO fan and it was so funny to see. None of EXO members were there but- okay. Whatever floats their boat.

I got inside at 6 PM and the competition was delayed until 7 PM :) Nice :) It's okay, I was busy taking a lot of pictures because I've never been to a stadium like this. 

We sat at the seats near the fence so it was a little bit disturbing, I couldn't take photos without the fence blocking the view. Damn, the players looked so small from up here. I had to squint my eyes and I regret not bringing binoculars but then again I don't have binoculars.

The lights were not on yet and people started to get into the venue.

I think it was at 6:30 PM when FC Men entered the venue and practiced on the field. Me and all of the people on the audience seats were screaming so loud, the excitement was so real. I couldn't believe I was in the same place and breathed the same air like Gikwang. For your information, I love B2ST Gikwang so much, along with Yoseob, but he didn't come here.

All of them were practicing, stretching, and joking around in front of my own yes. I was so touched!!! It was real, I saw them with my own eyes. Gikwang looks so good even when he is shorter than Dujun. Dujun looks chubby and I guess he gains weight after filming Let's Eat. My sister personally loves JYJ's Junsu (the one with blonde hair). Gikwang wore a pair of bright yellow shoes. They are brighter than your future.

The lights were on and Selebritis FC from Indonesia started to get into the field to greet the audience. I'm not complaining because there were Darius, Iko Uwaiz, Ben, and I told you, they are all so manly and handsome.

The funny thing is, all of the audience kept chanting Gikwang, Dujun, or Junsu. Everytime we chanted, Gikwang always looked back to us and waved at us. I think I just died at that time. He was so so so cute, always waving and smiling. So kind. It warms my kokoro :')

Junsu also waved back once or twice, maybe thrice, but not as much as Gikwang. About Dujun...he only waved once I think. And then B2ST's Good Luck started to play and boom all around the venue, and the audience started to sing to it. When the Reff part was playing, Gikwang suddenly danced a little and the audience were all screaming like crazy including me, heck, I think I almost peed in my pants because Gikwang danced cutely and then smiled, and embarrassed. I love him so much<///3

Oh yeah, the player with 10 as the shirt number is Gikwang.

The game started at 7 PM, and it was such an interesting match to see. I kept shouting and yelling, and chanting the name of the players. I think Junsu was left-back defender, because he was always there standing near the net. I think Gikwang was either left-back defender or wing-back defender because he stood near my seat. Dujun, he always stood far away from my seat so I guess he was either midfielder or wing-back defender.

In the second round, maybe because they were all tired, so many penalties happened. I deadass felt so scared when both of the team were arguing and they all looked so scary. There was this one scene where Darius, a player from Selebritis FC, and Dujun, fell into the ground at the same time, whether they bumped onto each other or one of them tackling the opponent's feet. I didn't see it clearly, but the point is, they started to yell at each other and had a really heated argument.

I saw it clearly, Dujun stood right in front of Darius and he brushes off the dust on Darius' shoulder, but he's more like, "We are done," and Darius stood there and smirked and they all kept arguing with the referee. 

Or that moment when one of the Indonesian player sliding-tackled Junsu and he ended up falling to the ground and I was yelling, "Save him! Save him! He is the assets!" which made Junsu having his corner kick.

Or that moment where one of Selebritis FC players fell together with one of FC Men players, and suddenly Iko Uwaiz ran so fast to the Korean player and almost hit him and he looked so so angry at him. Fortunately, Indonesian players were stopping him and calming him down. It was so so scary I told you.

I've never known watching soccer game would be this dreadful and make me sweating.

The game ended with 5-2 with FC Men as the winner. I forgot who made the goals because I didn't have time to write their names down. 

And then all of the players from both groups were approaching the audience and bowing to us, oh my God, I was screaming so loud (again) because I could look at them clearly! Gikwang and Dujun stayed bowing to the audience and I was so happy but sad at the same time.

The girls were all running to the fence, and they squished me to death and I couldn't take proper pictures because of them. 

LOOK! I GOT SOME PICTURES OF GIKWANG BUT I'M SORRY IT'S BLUR AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ///fainted

I was about to take a good picture of Gikwang and Dujun while bowing in front of me but suddenly there was a girl standing beside me and pushed me, and she kept jumping and jumping like a madman and she kept bumping onto my hand! If I think of it, I must be sounding so funny because I whispered to her, "Yah.....sis.......sis..........why..........," AHAHAHAHAHAHAH I deadass felt so sad at that time because the picture came out blur and so low quality.

It's okay, I was still happy nonetheless. I got to see my idols in front of my own eyes, and I can't wait to attend EXO'rdium concert if they hold it here next year.

It was such a nice experience and I'm sorry if I can't provide you with so much more HD previews because I couldn't bring my camera to the venue :( But here are some photos I got from internet, so yeah, don't think I'm lying to you. I really attended this soccer game!

I'm sorry to disappoint but my story hasn't ended yet. This is the best part.

When the game ended, everyone was leaving the venue immediately because it was already 10 PM. I went to the small mosque inside the venue and prayed there.When I finished, I was a little bit shocked because there were not so many people outside the venue. I was so thirsty and I walked around to find a minimarket along the way. We trailed behind a bunch of girls who also watched the game. We walked along the main road, but it was still not safe for us to walk alone, so yeah we trailed behind those girls.

We found minimarket near the main road, and I told my sister to stay a little bit inside because the air conditioning is so nice, but my sister told me that we have to go home quickly because it was so late. The girls we trailed behind earlier, also dropped by the minimarket but I guess they decided to stay there.

So yeah me and my sister drank our drinks while walking.

2 minutes later, we heard a police siren behind us. I was drinking my melon milk, and suddenly my sister was like, "Look back, don't tell me it's FC Men," and I snapped my head fast to the back and I saw a bus, trailing behind a policemen with siren ON, and I was frozen in place!

My sister also stared at the bus which was getting closer and closer to us, and the bus' window is so transparent we could see the people inside the bus, CLEARLY. I was trying to decipher whether it was FC Men bus, not for the crew. My sister and I stood there frozen in place, and I was so dumbstrucked my jaw hangs open so wide because I saw FC Men players inside the bus!!!

I saw a guy shirtless near the window (I don't know who), and another players too. They all looked so tired and all I could chant is Gikwang, Gikwang, Gikwang. The bus was 4 steps ahead of us and reality hit me hard that it was truly FC Men bus. AND THEN I SAW IT. I SAW IT!!!!!! There was one guy with a cap sitting in the most far back of the bus near the window and he waved at me, HE WAVED AT ME GUYS, even until the bus was far from us, that guy peeked back through the window and still waving and smiling!

I couldn't see his face clearly but he looked a little bit like Jung Joonyoung the singer and I couldn't help but think it was actually Gikwang! I swear, that guy is so kind because he probably saw me with my jaw dropping so wide and he couldn't help but waving at me and that was so so so Gikwang :( That's the thing Gikwang does :( And I literally hope it was Gikwang for real :( Because he literally looks like Gikwang :( What if he is Gikwang :( I could be dead by now :( Help me :(

I deadass couldn't stop jumping happily with my sister and if I were not tired, I must be running out to the bus like literally. I thanked my sister because she was the one who told me to not staying at the minimarket and kept walking. 

Those girls at minimarket didn't even know there was FC Men bus. I felt so lucky because there was literally no one on the street beside me and my sister. We saw shirtless FC Men players on the bus. Not to be haram but I still felt so dumbstrucked until now.

I heard that they headed straight to the hotel and they went to the airport in the morning. Junsu and the other FC Men players were going back to Seoul meanwhile Gikwang and Dujun went to Bali for holidays. 

Okay! See you on the next post!

(Definitely) Not My day

This is literally not my day. I'm sorry but I have to let it out, because I'm feeling very sad right now and the only thing I could think of doing is writing. Yes, literally not my day. 

Yesterday I just sprained my ankle and it hurts really bad. I don't know what had gotten into me but when I walked on the stairs at school earlier, my right leg suddenly weakened and I couldn't feel anything at all, which ended up of me getting my ankle dislocated. I was crying hard while holding back the pain because it was unbearable. I don't care if there were so many people passing by and I don't care if my face looked ugly, I don't care. 

I'm sad because the only one who helped me is Afifah, those people on the stairs didn't help me at all. Maybe I looked like I was joking around and I just slipped. My mom said maybe that's because I have been on those people' place before; a bystander. She nagged at me and told me that it was a lesson from God. Maybe she is right. 

The pain doesn't stop at that. After that, I got a notification from this organization I was trying to gen in at. And, unfortunately, I don't get accepted. I was feeling so lost and disappointed at myself. I'm getting older and reality slaps me hard in the face everyday. I will graduate and will have to find a job. It's not easy to get a job because you have to compete againts another 9378627672 genius people. I'm not that good in academic and I'm not that good in organization. I'm facing my life crisis right now. I'm such an emotional wreck trying to find solutions and chances. I have to be more active. I have to find life skills as many as I can. But until now, I still feel lost.

Maybe it's not my time, but there will be another time.

P.S: MAMA 2016 is 4 days to go! Please drop by mama.mwave.me/vote and vote for EXO, thank you! <3 And happy birthday Park Chanyeol from EXO, I hope you have great days!

My Thoughts on 2016 Melon Music Awards

Okay finally I'm coming back here wanting to discuss about 2016 Melon Music Awards (2016 MMA) that was being held on November 19th 2016, two days ago.

I can't believe I'd rather write a blog post than write an essay and paper. I'm not a role model material, indeed. 

2016 MMA had been good to EXO. (EXO again, Nuha?) 

Thank God they got 5 awards on MMA; they snatched those 5 awards as well as my wig, they snatched my wig now I'm bald. They got Top 10 Artist award, Best Dance award, Netizen Choice of the Year award, KAKAO Hot Star award, and Artist of the Year award.   

It's such a good improvement because EXO got 2 awards on 2015 MMA, Top 10 Artist award and Album of the Year award with EXODUS album. I'm so proud of them and I ended up feeling emotional on Saturday. I'm so touched at their speech they delivered on stage. I love how they seem tense everytime they heard their name being nominated and appeared on the screen, and when the MCs announced their name as the winner, they suddenly stood up abruptly. It was so overwhelming!

I cried when I watched Baekhyun delivered speech after they got Artist of the Year award, because he tried so hard to hold back the tears along with "I'm so shocked, I still can't believe we get this award, if it's not because of EXO-Ls," and Chanyeol squeezed his shoulder to comfort him but we all could see the tears pooling at Baekhyun's eyes, and I also watched Junmyeon cried there on stage. Not to be out of character but I'm too soft for witnessing a heartwrenching moment like this.

Right at that time, all I can think is all of the achievements EXO got until now. I had been watching them growing up from zero to the position they are in right now. Rumours, and everything. I guess, all those barriers make them be much more mature. They went through so much things since 2012. In 2016 itself, they have a lot of comebacks and individual activities, all those fansigns and concerts. I know it must be difficult for them to do all of that, that's why I really appreciate their hardworks. 

They have 5 albums coming out this year, EX'ACT, Lotto, EXO-CBX, Coming Over, and the awaited winter album. They also hold EXO'rdium concerts in a lot of cities, and some of them get the privilege to have 3 days concert. They had to fly back and forth from Seoul to those cities, and they only have 2-3 days off this year, maybe for chuseok, like Baekhyun stated in the radio. EXO had to do variety in Happy Together and Infinity Challenge, collaborated with Yoo Jae Suk in a song called Dancing King, which I can't stop listening to until now.

Minseok, with his movie Kim Seondal, and he also debuted in EXO-CBX, and was featured in AOA's Jimin's solo single Call You Bae, participating in Idol Star Athletics Championships, and filming Travel without Manager together with Jongdae, and also did OST in Kim Seondal and Scarlet Heart Ryeo. He also had to film The Return of Superman together with Jongdae and met Soeul Daeul<3

Junmyeon, who got the role in a webdrama called How are You Bread and a drama called The Stars of the Universe and busy with all of the filming schedules. He also collaborated with SJ's Leeteuk and Kassy in a song titled My Hero, as part of S.M Station project. He collaborated with Jongdae in a chinese song called Beautiful Accident, and also participated in Idol Chef King together with Baekhyun, even though both of them are really weak in cooking department. 

Yixing, who has to go back and forth from Seoul to Beijing because he is one of the main members in a Chinese variety show called Go Fighting, released a song called Monodrama as a part of S.M Station project, participating in Chinese TV Series called Mystic Nine, participating in a drama with f(x)'s Krystal but I forget what's the title, released a song called what U need, has his own solo album Lose Control, and you might heard of him getting exhausted to the point he fainted at the airport due to fatigue and lacks of sleep. After Asian Artists Awards that was being held last week, he got so much shades and critiques from Korean netizens because he kept his hands on his slacks' pocket while standing on stage. People start to bash him and tell him to leave EXO. I'm so sad at how immature, irrational, and racist those people can be. Men with slacks, most definitely, will just slide their hands in on those pockets, yeah they all did. Sorry if Yixing was being careless about that, because some people might see it as disrespectful thing to do. But, hating on him and being racist, telling him to go back to China because he is Chinese, and telling him to leave EXO, in my opinion, is such a huge idiocy. This reminds me of Kyungsoo's issue back then. Yixing is such a good person, and when those salty people get dirt of him, they bash him to no end. Yesterday, I saw a GIF of Yixing on red carpet in 2016 MMA, who naturally wanted to put his hands on his slacks' pocket, but he stopped, and put his hands on his side instead. I'm so so so sad because Yixing probably knows all of the hates directing towards him, and he looked tired that night. He kept silence and just smiled weakly. I'm so sad, I hope Yixing is flowered by happiness :( I hope he is okay :(

Baekhyun, who got the role in a drama called Scarlet Heart Ryeo, had to do filming in the middle of hectic schedules and he ended up fall asleep while filming a scene where he had to lay down on the ground because the character he plays is supposed to be dead, and he also had collaboration with Miss A's Suzy in Dream, and he had to do promotions for EXO-CBX. He also collaborated with K.Will in a song called The Day as a part of S.M Station project. Like I stated before, he participated in Idol Chef King together with Junmyeon. It was so funny because Baekhyun literally didn't now how to cook and he got confused when he wanted to boil an egg. It's okay Baekhyun, you are still cute.  

Chanyeol, who had a collaboration with Far East Movement and Marshmello in a song called Freal Love, getting all the fans' attention by rapping longass sentences in English. He also participated in one of the songs in SJ's Yesung solo album but I forget the title of that song I'm sorry I'm not good with names. Don't forget that he also was busy promoting his movie So I Married an Anti-fan. I haven't watched it yet but Chanyeol got his first kissing scene there and it's so lit HAHA I'm sorry. He tends to upload his own composed songs to his Instagram and Soundcloud (and have you listened to Chanyeol and Kyungsoo singing Love Yourself by Justin Bieber???? That was so lit.) He is now busy filming a drama called Missing Nine, sometimes I get confused because it sounds similar with Yixing's TV series, Mystic Nine.

Jongdae, is also very much busy this year with all of those EXO-CBX promotions and comebacks stages. He also did so many OSTs and song collaborations for God's sake. He sings an OST for a drama Descendants of the Sun, a song called Everytime. He also did a collaboration with Heize in a song called Lil' Something as a part of S.M Station project. Oh I forget to mention it, but Jongdae and Baekhyun participated in UNICEF Imagine Project, and I love their voice so much. Jongdae met Soeul and Daeul in The Return of Superman together with Minseok because people say Jongdae and Daeul look like each other. I hope he gets a lot of OST offers in the near future. Oh! And he collaborated with DJ Alesso in a song called Years and that's how I strangle myself. That is so amazing.

Kyungsoo, this will be my cue to write an essay. He went through so many things this year and he works so hard for it. In the early year, he plays a role of voice actor for an animated film called Underdog. And then he collaborated with Yoo Youngjin in a song called Tell Me (What is Love) as a part of S.M Station project. I can't stop listening to this song until months later like seriously. Both of their voices are so good and it blends together and I'm so so dead. He was so so busy promoting his movie called Pure Love to the point he was spotted wearing thick-rimmed glasses often to cover his eyebags. I really remember how he had to do fansign and radio promotions, interviews, regarding his movie. I cried watching it and I hope people can appreciate it as much as I do.  On October, he was busy filming his webdrama called Positive Physique. I LOVE IT SO MUCH BECAUSE HE LOOKS EXTRA MANLY AND CUTE AT THE SAME TIME THERE LIKE- HOW? Okay. sorry. But Kyungsoo's acting is so good. Friendly reminder that he got his first kissing scene there, I'm nutting because he has 3 kissing scenes. Oh yeah and I feel so sad that moment when the MC asked what will he do if the webdrama surpassed 25 million views. He looked so fragile and doubtful and answered that he will not expect too much. I feel so so so emotional because he was being insecure, because as we know, his previous movies, Cart and Pure Love, didn't go well in sales. Maybe that's why he doesn't want to expect too much for his webdrama. I'm so sad, he looked so fragile. I want to hug him so bad. Shit, I am so lame, but what can I do, I love him so much :( You don't know how happy I am when I know his webdrama surpassed 30 million views in 3 weeks and it's being number #1 most viewed webdrama ever! I'm so proud you don't have idea. I hope Kyungsoo gets so much recognitions from people. He is now busy promoting his movie with Jo Jungsuk and Park Shinhye called Hyung. You have to see how dedicated Kyungsoo in this movie. He gets a role as a judo player, so he practiced for 4 months straight to build his body. He never missed the practice in the middle of his hectic schedules with EXO. I'm so touched, he is so amazing. He does so many interviews and fansigns, also variety like Runningman to promote that movie. How exhausting is that. Oh yeah, he also will be busy after Hyung premiere because he has to film for his upcoming movie called With God that will be aired on 2017. The filming location is in Busan and wow, it must be exhausting to go back and forth from there to Seoul. I hope he gets enough sleep :( He gets the role of Private Won, a military member. That is why Kyungsoo keeps his hair short this year. Kyungsoo!!! Fighting!!!

Jongin, is also busy with so many things, most of them is; being featured in magazines. I told you people, if he is not EXO member, he is probably being Asian Next Top Model! He got injured on July, and fully healed on October. In those months, he literally accepts all of the magazine offers. Not that I'm complaining, because he got a body of Greek god. He is definitely EXO model yall. I swear, all of the previews are wallpaper worthy.

Sehun, my cutie softie little peanut! He grows up so much I'm starting to question his status as EXO maknae. He is busy filming for his movie called My Dear Archimedes, where he plays a role as a professor who has disability. Oh yeah, he is done filming his upcoming movie called Catman that will be aired on 2017. I'm anticipating!

[!!!] So if you think that EXO doesn't work hard enough to get the award, then please, read my essay above again. I only stated EXO activities and hardworks in 2016. I feel tired just reading it. Every group works hard, every group deserves to get an award. If you think every group from big company doesn't work hard enough, then I ask you to repent. EXO's first debut album MAMA didn't get public reaction too well. I remember there were less than 30 people coming to their fansign. That isn't right for you to step on EXO because I know they work their asses off not to get salty opinions from you. 

After 2016 MMA ended, Twitter was being chaotic (maybe until now) because so many fans asking about why the hell EXO didn't get the Album of the Year award because EXO 2016 album, EX'ACT, is being such a bop, leaving EXO with a title as Triple Million Seller for succeeding in both physical sales and digital sales. 

Like my friend said, if EXO only could get 1 award that night, it must be Album of the Year, because, well, EX'ACT has the best results in sales comparing to the previous albums.

Once again, I don't know what's going on but fanwars are everywhere. I'm so fed up, but I also was angry. I want to know what is the judging criteria of MMA. MMA is all about digital sales and judges opinion. But EXO tops digital sales. If they choose the winner of Album of the Year based on subjective opinions ("They write their own lyrics! So many high quality songs!"), Big Bang might as well win the same award in last year's MMA, but they didn't. I'm so confused.

I don't hate BTS, they are also amazing and deserves the award. I just hate the judging thingy. I know we can't take it all back. I'm just disappointed. It's not being greedy over an award, it's all about wanting to get clarification of this issue. Album of the Year is based on the streaming amount of the entire songs in the album and it doesn't count the sales amount. Streaming 70% and voting 30%. But the thing is, according to the chart (Singer, Streaming, Download, Voting amount, Cheer Point, Voting Point, Total) EXO is far ahead, but yeah, still, I don't get it. 

And all of these K-Netz comments...

 [+741, -55] Melon needs to start putting up the vote results and annual stats up on the screen as they give out the award. So many people don't understand why the awards were given the way they were. So many instances where the people who had the better stats didn't get their awards. If we had the numbers up on the screen, we could judge for ourselves objectively.
 [+414, -34] Putting my fan feelings aside... I really wish ceremonies like this would try harder to be more fair. This isn't some hand out 
 [+524, -86] What's the point of EXO being triple million sellers when Melon won't give them an album award or album sales award
 [+436, -63] I refuse to use Melon anymore ㅋㅋㅋ
 [+485, -84] EXO is higher on the Melon album chart for the album award but look at them not give it to EXO
Source: Sports Chosun Naver 

They are disappointed, I'm also disappointed. I agree with the first comment, Melon needs to start putting up the vote results and annual stats up on the screen as they give out the award so that people can see the 'receipt' because many people don't understand why the awards were given the way they were. There will be no doubt anymore and give us win-win situation. So many groups who have the better statistics didn't get their awards. If we have the receipt on the screen, we could judge for ourselves objectively. 

Fans are starting to stream EXO's Unfair and it enters the chart again HAHA. The level of shades though...

I hope MAMA 2016 will be having a fairplay. Friendly reminder that MNET has deleted all of EXO's Monster and Lotto comeback videos from their website two weeks before the event. One of the judging criterias is based on streaming points, but EXO has none of it now. I'm so angry, it's the same like last year, MNET is being snake again this time. They will do anything to make SMent artists lose in MAMA 2016.

I want MNET to play fair and square. The same like any other award event. Please vote for EXO in mama.mwave.me/vote and make EXO happy. Look at Yixing cherishing the award. I really want EXO to win and make them happy because this is one of the ways to thank them for all of their hardworks.

Okay...SO YEAH!

Sorry if I make mistakes here, see you.