(Definitely) Not My day

This is literally not my day. I'm sorry but I have to let it out, because I'm feeling very sad right now and the only thing I could think of doing is writing. Yes, literally not my day. 

Yesterday I just sprained my ankle and it hurts really bad. I don't know what had gotten into me but when I walked on the stairs at school earlier, my right leg suddenly weakened and I couldn't feel anything at all, which ended up of me getting my ankle dislocated. I was crying hard while holding back the pain because it was unbearable. I don't care if there were so many people passing by and I don't care if my face looked ugly, I don't care. 

I'm sad because the only one who helped me is Afifah, those people on the stairs didn't help me at all. Maybe I looked like I was joking around and I just slipped. My mom said maybe that's because I have been on those people' place before; a bystander. She nagged at me and told me that it was a lesson from God. Maybe she is right. 

The pain doesn't stop at that. After that, I got a notification from this organization I was trying to gen in at. And, unfortunately, I don't get accepted. I was feeling so lost and disappointed at myself. I'm getting older and reality slaps me hard in the face everyday. I will graduate and will have to find a job. It's not easy to get a job because you have to compete againts another 9378627672 genius people. I'm not that good in academic and I'm not that good in organization. I'm facing my life crisis right now. I'm such an emotional wreck trying to find solutions and chances. I have to be more active. I have to find life skills as many as I can. But until now, I still feel lost.

Maybe it's not my time, but there will be another time.

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