Damn Pathetic

Good evening.
This is basically Kpop related post (again).

Okay, so I'm just here to say that Tao's leaving issue doesn't affect me at all. It's like- I didn't feel anything, I don't feel anything. I don't cry, I don't look happy. It's numb. I'm thinking about this alot. Maybe I don't cry because this is the 3rd time I've seen this same case all over again. 

Wuyifan leaves EXO.
"This is the beginning of EXO. Please believe. We are one."

Luhan leaves EXO.
"This is the beginning of EXO. Please believe. We are one."

Tao leaves EXO.
And now what are you gonna say to us? That this is the beginning of EXO and you tell us to believe? 

That's more like "we are one by one leaving." Haha. Because believe is such a strong word to use. Because your promise to stick until the end is just a matter of time, everything will change, everything is for the promotional's sake. But I can't blame you guys because everything comes with no warning. When it did, it just did. And I can't seem to leave you guys too. I've been watching you raise from the bottom and now you are on top with every awards inside your glass cupboard. I remember watching your first debut song MV and I was laughing because, "Wow, why the hell they call MAMA every single second?" I have watched you grow since 2012 and now you are already 3 years old. I'm proud.

I should have left you, and hate you.
Because you are always saying and acting that everything is fine. You always tell us fans not to worry about everything. I hate being a fan because I don't know every single thing happens inside that glorious SMent building. It's like you keep hiding something from us. I hate all of you for not being so open to us fans and I'm anxious. What if you just tell us lies. What if you are faking that smile because once again, it's for promotional's sake and for fanservice, they say. 

I should have left you, and hate you, because there are so many other Kpop bands out there that are more talented than you. But I can not.

I can't leave you, I can't abandon you for other Kpop bands. Everytime I'm listening to your songs, and watching all of your MVs, I fall in love again and again and this never ends. Repeat the cycle, that's how I do. Because you are EXO, the 1st group that I have stanned so long and the group I am dedicated myself to.

This sounds so pathetic hell yeah. But you will never feel how fans feel toward their idols if you are not a fan. 

I will end this post like this. I love EXO.