I Feel So Scary

To the point I don't know who I am anymore. I'm becoming scarier day by day. I'm scared with my own thoughts, I'm scared of people. I'm scared of my behaviours. I'm scared of what I've become lately, my thoughts consume me; I'm scared. I believe this is the consequence I should face because not trying hard enough for you, God. I'm sorry. I promise I'm going to fix this. 

(P.S: in the middle of doing this Bretton Woods: emergence of a global economic regime review. I'm totally fucked up.)